every mess matters

i created this space mostly for myself, as a way to put my thoughts and experiences with motherhood somewhere other than my social media pages. i have so much to say, so much to talk about when it comes to being a mom, and have up until now, used platforms like Instagram and Facebook to do that. i put up my horrible attempt at an aesthetic picture (for who? me?) and then post a ridiculously long caption about how beautiful motherhood is, just for the same five family members to comment about how my words have touched their hearts. in the same breath that i'm letting their words give me a  temporary high of pride, i'm aggravated with my daughter for not falling asleep after an hour of me trying to put her down. she's crying,  i'm crying, everyone is crying and just like that, i'm feeling like this is the hardest and most exhausting job of my life. motherhood is so beautiful isn't it? not always.  i'm here to admit that. don't get me wrong - i have LOVED ...